this fist full
of blood in
my chest
has beaten
well over a
billion times
already
i've done
the
calculations
& today
i wonder
what they'd
sound
like
simultaneously
40 years
of beating
over a
billion
beats
at
once
but a better
question might be:
what on earth
would those
billion beats
be pounding upon?
love's door?
or
meaninglessly beating
upon an
exit?
that mute place
beyond numbers
& calculations
& love, yes
beyond love...